I drew this strip early on into my most recent bout with depression, so it’s just been sitting in my sketchbook for a few weeks. I was trying to be productive when I made it. Trying to think of solutions.
This solution’s a little silly in theory but at the time, I was depressed and I missed being on-par with artists who – these days – are far more consumed with their passion than I am. I figured practicing taking pride in my personal achievements would improve my outlook.
Unfortunately, I still felt lonely after that.
Imagine a ball of energy welling up in your hand full of forgiveness, love and charity and place it upon your heart and let out a deep breath. Let it sit for a bit and be kind to yourself. It doesn’t hurt to try.
It’s not fair to place all these expectations on yourself like a helicopter parent. Your art will always have a quality that’s uniquely you, based off of experiences you’ve accumulated over time. You’re exactly at the level of artistry you need to be at this exact moment. As for the future you – who knows? Work together with your future self to work toward your goals. But always be kind.
Love from New Zealand.
Thank you so much, Dennis. Love straight back from California!!
Every artist does a performance for other artists who they think are better, more productive, more creative and successful than they are. It’s a monkey on our backs flogging our brain with a piece of dirty wire, but it’s better than not being an artist.